Being Challenged.. In the Marriage

As I start off the new year, there is much that I am thankful for. I could write a list that could be pages long. I have such a huge happiness and I know it is all because of GOD.. Have you ever been challenged before and failed in your Marriage? Have you ever been pushed to the limit that you could not control yourself, (anger). How did you handle it? Well I experienced that the other day as a wife. I was so mad at myself because I let my husband's words get me so mad that I was unable to control myself. I do know that husbands have issues and stress and sometimes something little that they may say to you, could explode into something big. but I always feel that you as the wife should be able to to control what you say BACK to them.. and this is where I failed that the other day. I have to forgive myself because for me, I am very hard on myself and I will beat myself up for weeks over things. ON the other hand I was very disappointed at my hubby because of how he views me. There was a situation at the house that broke my heart. I really thought that my husband had made this huge sacrifice and I wanted to let him know that while I appreciate the sacrifice, I don't want him to go without ever.. We will work through everything and make decisions as a team. There could have been so much that I could have not gotten to make sure he had what he needed.... Well...... Sigh!!! He turned that thing around so fast I could have got whiplash.. I remember turning around in the car as he was talking to see if he was talking to someone else or playing.. I must be honest y'all.. I thought he was playing.. but then I saw that he was very serious.. I instantly got mad.. and that was all she wrote.. The way I should have acted was not the way that I acted and for that I must say that I failed this test. I was suppose to be silent.. something that I have grown very good at doing and let him state what he felt and move on from the situation but old Tasha.. came back in and whoa.. she can really talk.. Keeping in mind Wives that it is truly hard when you are hurt or angry from something to sit there and be silent. Back to the prayer room I go but I know GOD has to tell me about myself and that is actually what he did. It does not matter how my husband acted, I should have acted differently. I could give so many reasons on why I think he was wrong, but the bottom line is that I was wrong and I have to acknowledge that I should have just kept my mouth shut and I didn't.. Another lesson learned and another test that I'll have to start all over again to complete. Well Thank GOD for life.. I tell you.. I LOVE the life I live and the things I must go through..

P.S.. I still have an amazing husband.. Sometimes GOD allows things to happen to see how you will react to them..

Till Later Loves.. Remember practice everything with Love.. 1st Corinthians 13